Happy father's Day

So I know it’s a little early for Father’s Day but I am dedicating this blog to all Fathers- well actually just mine! Daddy-this one is for you!

I was blaring my ipod enjoying a big empty house all to myself when Billy Ray and Miley’s song “Ready Set Don’t Go” came on. I have heard this song umpteen times since it first came out but I guess the words never really meant anything to me until now. As I listened I realized that Daddy probably feels a lot like Billy Ray. I mean let’s face it fathering three girls is tough enough now they are all grown up, moving out, having babies (Welcome baby Gia!), and starting their own families- I’m the only one left! Being the youngest of Daddy’s little girls and of course his favorite ( Sorry sisters..But we know it’s true!) It is probably hard see us all grown up and moving on to new phases in our lives because it forces you into a new phase of your life too! (Pappy) It’s one thing for Elaina to live next door and Allison three hours away, but for the next 27 months I will be a 20+ hour plane ride away! In a different time zone, in a different country on a different continent! Daddy it’s going to be hard! But I’m going to be okay! This is my dream, this is what I want, and if you’re not ready to talk about it yet that’s okay we still have a month! But I’ll leave you with some advice with the help of Billy Ray:


I’ve got dreams too big for this town and I need to give them a shot. I’m at the starting line of the rest of my life, as ready as I ever been I’m waiting on your blessing before I hit that open road I say things are falling in place- to you it feels like they’re falling apart But it’s time for you to paint a big old smile on your face and hide your breaking heart. I know this is where you don’t say what you want to bad to say. This is where you want to, but you won’t get in the way of me and my dreams and you’ll let me spread my wings!


Love you Daddy!

Torn and Tattered

Counting down from today I have exactly 6 more days of work. As the days dwindle down I am beginning to experience so many emotions! I’m so excited to finally be moving on to this new chapter in my life, but at the same time I’m going to miss the same old story line I follow every day! I’m not quite ready for new characters in my life- I’m still getting used to the ones I have in my life now! I’m not ready to leave my clients- leave them feeling stranded like they felt a mere 5 months ago when their previous counselor moved on to a new job. I suppose all of these feelings and emotions surfaced today when my manager started interviewing for my position! I’m jealous! I don’t want some else experiencing all of the greatness, pleasure, and happiness that seems to radiate from my clients! (Most of them anyway) I’m not ready to give that up, or share it with anyone else! I’m hoping this feeling will go away or at least lessens after I actually tell my clients I’m leaving next week. I was advised not to tell them until my last week here-so much for termination! But a week will have to do!

Not only am I feeling torn about leaving my job, but last night my nephew Caleb was over and I was getting ready to go see a friend. Caleb looked up at me with the saddest face I have ever seen and his little shoulders dropped as he said “ Aunt D, Where are you going?” it was heartbreaking!

Not to mention, my sister is having a baby in June, and I’m going to miss my best friend’s wedding, and her dad’s MJ impression :-)

So here I am torn..torn and tattered..

BUT

I’m 100% sure I’m making the right decision choosing Africa, choosing the Peace Corps over all of the above statements! This is the decision I need to make, This is where I need to be in my life at this time! I know that leaving my job, my friends, and my family will be hard, but I’m sure nothing will ever compare to the experience I will have over the next 27 months in Mali! This time last years the Peace Corps was a far off dream, now being 41 days away from actually leaving its becoming more and more real- And I couldn’t be more excited!

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Invite!

I have finally been invited to serve in MALI! My program is Education and I'll be serving from July 1, 2010- September 2012!! I couldn't be more excited! I'm off to update my resume and prepare my aspiration statement!!

More to come soon...